Postpartum Appt...

I usually would not blog about such a thing as my postpartum appointment  but I just have to for memory sake. On Firday was my appointment with Pam who delivered Kreed. I just love her, she has the best bubbly personality and is just one heck of an awesome midwife. When she came into the room she was disappointed that I did not bring Kreed but he was sleeping and Christian was home so I just decided to leave him home. I did however bring her a birth announcement with a sweet message to the midwives on it. I made them all homemade sugar scrubs to say thank you...I am all about useful thank you's instead of just a card. I wrote it to all of the midwives because they all saw me through my case with pProm and they all supported me 100%! It read....

Dear Midwives, 

"I want to thank you for your constant support with my pregnancy and pProm case. Words cannot express how grateful I am for all of you. You as midwives are amazing and one of the reasons I hold a healthy baby boy in my arms today. My heart is full of complete gratitude. Thank you for believing in miracles!"

Pam read that that and got a little teary eyed and said, "really it is just a miracle isn't it?" She then told me that her side of the story to my birth. She told me that the doctors on the outside were watching the monitors like a hawk and just looking for reason to come in. She said that I was doing so good in my labor that she knew everything was going to be just fine. She kept saying, "you rocked it girl, you really knew what you were doing...you know how to give birth to babies!" LOL, she is so funny! The doctor that was on call was one of the doctors that was rudest to me with my case with pProm. She wanted to have me deliver at 34 weeks no matter what and I simply refused. After they sent me home on bed rest she was absolutely livid about the the whole situation and was very rude to me. She would always try and bully me into thinking I was not doing the right thing for my baby. I knew I was and what she did not know is that I knew my body way better then she did. Anyway, she was the doctor that happen to be on call that night. Pam told me she kept insisting that I have internal monitors on and and Pam being the wonderful midwife that use is down right told her, "NO!" She also told me she knew during labor that I was getting frustrated that they had to monitor me on the outside but she assured me that it was only to keep the doctors at bay.. so she just wanted to let me know that. I was so happy to hear that and that she really cared about me and my birth plan. I did not want the pit or the epidural because I did not want a reason for the doctors to say, "we need to intervene because she has had, this, this and this!" She really made that happen even when I was at my breaking point towards the end. She told me that despite of his prematurity that I totally could of had him at home. Home birth is something I have always thought about and is probably somewhere in my future. She just kept saying, "Your birth was just so cool, it was literally so awesome!" Yes it was, and it was just the way I wanted it and I thanked her for letting it pan out the way that it did. She then said to me, "I have to drive pretty far to come to work and some days I ask myself if it worth it. Your birth reminded me of why I love my job, it really was one of the most beautiful births I have ever witnessed and will never forget it or you!" WOW, I was simply flattered! She also exclaimed how impressed she was by my team. She really loved my Doula and she said, "Christian was just rolling with you every step of the way." Not everyone has the kind of team I did and she said that really makes a huge difference with how your labor goes.  

She checked me over and said everything looked good. She cleared me to start working out again...YAY! I was almost down to my pre pregnancy weight too..YAY! It was funny because when she checked me she had to check my kegel muscles to see how well they were working and she was honestly so shocked! She said, "holy cow women they are strong, have you been working on them recently?" I told her no and then she said that I should be happy they are still very strong after baby number 3. I really do love Pam, she is one of the best midwives and I just connected with her so much. We hugged each other and somewhat said our goodbyes since I will not be having any more planned children out here, there would be really no reason for me to see her again. I will never forget her with how she played a huge roll in getting my little Kreed safely and naturally here. I left that office with a HUGE smile on my face that is for sure. 

When I think back of what I had to go through it just makes my heart so full love. Some women honestly go through hades and back when their water breaks early. I belong to a pProm support group where I read about what these women go through and some of it is just awful! I was one of the lucky ones where it broke later in gestational age. Some women water breaks so early and doctors bully them into terminated the pregnancy. Some women find out later that they could have kept the babies and at least given then a chance and then they are really so devastated.  Even though mine broke later I still know how it feels to be bullied and treated poorly. I know that doctors have to go off stats and protocol but sometimes I wish they would look outside the box. This is why I loved midwives because they knew the logistics of what was going on but yet they listen to what they felt was right. I went against the odds. Pam told me that, "we do not see cases like yours ever!" I do feel very fortunate since I know some women are not so lucky when this happens to them. I asked Pam if I have to worry about this again since my husband and I want a big family. She said, "you have asked me this a million times and the answer is still the same..NO!" Everyone has a 10-15% chance of this happening and I had no preterm labor when my water ruptured let alone not even one single contraction! Of course I will worry next time but that will be expected. I am not sure why it happened but I just like to think of it as a growing and learning experience. I would never wish it upon anyone but I hope that I can pay it forward by supporting other women through this tortuous thing called pProm (preterm pre rupture of the membrane). 

This is a funny cartoon that basically sums it up...LOL! 

 This one is so TRUE too...

I guess I can now say that I was once a pPROM QUEEN!! 

Kreed's Birth Story

WARNING: Some of the things you read might be too explicit for you. Also my opinions are very strong when it comes to his birth story so if any of you are offended easily then I would advise you not to read it:)

Ok lets get started....

On the 22nd when I wrote this post I actually started feeling somewhat crampy around noon and it would come and go about every 20 minuets. I remember when Beth my midwife check me at my appointment around 10am that she said she "stirred" things up in there to maybe get things started. Little did I know that it may have done something. I then just went about my day getting things ready since the plan was to go in the next morning for induction. One of my friends had the boys for the day so I did not have to worry about them. I did not get much done when my Doula (Shari) came over around 2. Shari and I have known each other since High School. She was a couple grades younger then me and her brothers and my brothers were great friends. It just so happens that both our husbands are in Chiropractic school and in the same tri. We have become very good friends so I was grateful to have her as my Doula. I told her about the cramping that was coming and going and she told me that this was good, that my body was doing something.

We immediately began acupressure on the certain points on my body to keep these contractions going. Really these were contractions? I had never felt them before since all my past labor have been induced. The most I have ever felt are braxton hicks. These were nothing compared to pit contractions...I could totally do these, they just felt like mild period cramps. We then started with clergy sage oil on the ankles and tummy which seem to be working. Oh yes I also forgot to mention that I put primrose oil up me and also took it eternally to keep my cervix nice and soft. I sipped on raspberry leaf tea all day to help with dilation and uterine contractions as well. About and hour or so into this we decided to start the black and blue cohosh which really induces labor naturally. It is so pretty nasty stuff which required me to have some sort of a chaser with it. We started out with like 1tbsp at first to see if it would do anything. It sort of did so for the next 2 hours I took 1/4 of a cup to really get things going. It was working so the next hour I only had another 2 tbsp and then the following hour 1tbsp. I used my magnetic flex on my lower abdomen to help with the tightening. We also taped magnets to certain points on my body. All of these things seem to be working and my body kept responding very well which was surprising because we honestly thought for only being 36 weeks that my body would do nothing. With my other 2 boys I just begged for something to start happening and it never did so this came as quite a shock! Nevertheless we just kept going with it.

My contractions starting coming about every 5-6 minuets but they were only like 30-40 seconds long. I was getting flustered because this went on for a while I knew I needed them longer and more close together. Shari told me it was fine and that at least my body was doing something. We were not sure if my body was going to stay with way so we just went about the evening. I tried to take a nap but I really couldn't so I just layed down and rested for a bit. I kept feeling a lot of pressure in my back so it was nice to lay down. Chris finally came home with the boys and Shari husband (Brandon) came over and we just started to prepare for dinner. Christian was the chef since I really did not want to be cooking during contractions. He made my favorite...fish, sweet potatoes, and veggies. They wanted me to eat really well since I would not know when I would be eating again. I still kept feeling lots of pressure in my back so Shari also did some pain pressure point on me that made me feel relief. We realized I was timing the contractions wrong because I was doing it at the peak of pain not when they actually were coming on, so really I was right where I should be. WOW, this was really happening I thought? I kept asking Shari over and over, "promise I will get a break with contractions!" She assured me I would always get a break. As my contractions kept coming my biggest fear is that I would not have a break and they would be back to back like they were with pit. I could totally do this even if it was only like a 1-2 minuet break in between. I finally was realizing what natural labor felt like I was happy to finally be doing it!

During dinner I kept having to get up and move through out the contractions, I did not like sitting still during one at all! I then started to get a little feisty and I wanted to lay down again. Shari was busy getting her son and Brandon out the door for the night and Christian started vigorously packing for the hospital. By this time it was around 9pm at night or so. My contractions then started getting about 2-4 minuets apart and lasting about a minuet long. I then was having to really breath and moan through them a little bit. They were not too intense but still uncomfortable. Christian kept wanting to go the hospital right away and I kept declining because I did not want to go too early. Shari finally convinced me that we should go because I kept saying how I wanted to get into the birthing tub. We called a babysitter to come over with the boys so we could go. It seriously was all happening so fast. We hurried or at least tried, I was now feeling the contractions pretty strong. On our way to hospital I ask Christian, "did you grab the camera?" He said, "no I did not"... so I had him turn around to go back and get it. We could not have a baby without our camera! Even though my contractions were coming on pretty hard I still wanted our camera..LOL! Luckily we were not too far from home. After that I could tell Christian was trying to rush as fast as he could and he was speeding. We saw a cop and he said, "darn I am going to get pulled over!" I yelled at him and said, "do not do this to me now!" I was in labor do you blame me? Fortunately the cop did not pull us over, what a blessing!

I got to the hospital about 10:30 at night and the first thing I told them is "get me in the birthing tub now!" They then told me that they were going to have to monitor me for about 20 min. I then got somewhat dressed for labor. I did not want to wear the gown this time so I just wore a top. If it was up to me I probably would have been nude but I was trying to be a little bit modest. I told the nurse I wanted her to check me to see how far I had progressed. She check me and said, "you are a good 4cm dilated." WHAT!!! Only 4cm you have to be kidding me, I thought to myself! I then felt very discouraged but I was just going with it and just wanted to get into the birthing tub. We went down to the birthing room where the tub was and I was just glad to finally be all the way admitted. My midwife Pam who I love  and I was so glad she was on call that night showed up. She said, "do I want to know how you got here?" She really did not think I could go into labor on my own and was looking forward to seeing me for the induction in the morning..LOL! Since I tested positive to GBS they had to give me an iv and the antibiotic. Can I tell you how frustrating it is to be getting an iv during strong contractions?? Not fun! I was getting so ticked because they could not find a vein. Like I said sitting still during contractions was not my thing and what do you have to do while getting an iv?...be still! Ah, it was so very annoying. They had like 3-4 nurses trying but I guess my veins were stubborn. They finally go it in about 40 minuets later and I was able to get into the birthing tub.

I loved it in there. The warm water felt very good while I was contracting. I put in my hypno birthing affirmations cd to help me relax. I love that cd and the things it says...:"every surge brings the baby closer...my baby and my body know how to give birth...every part of my body is relaxed!" It really did give me a sense of relaxation. I was able to do different positions while in the big tub. All fours seemed to be my favorite and took most the pressure away. My contractions were pretty intense I would say by now but they were still doable. I was breathing through them with J and O breaths which means as you breath you say that letter. Keeping my breath low helped me a lot to stay in focus and in control. I would sway and move my hips in figure 8 or back and forth through each contraction and then rest in between to gear up for the next one. Cold towels were placed on my neck helped me from getting overheated and I wore my husbands magnetic necklace to decrease tension in my shoulders. Shari was amazing and she just knew the right things to say at the right time. Christian was a great support and Shari would tell him things to do and he was always right there! Let me tell you getting a massage while you are in labor is Heaven, so I would recommend to anyone to have a massage doula! My midwife was awesome too, she was right there with me and in tune with what was going on and what I wanted. I still kept feeling a lot of back labor and it was really uncomfortable so Christian checked my pelvis and did some soft tissue. What relief! I labored in the water for about 2 hours. I was in it to win it but I was getting rather exhausted. I kept saying, "I just want my baby here, when is he coming?" Also when the contractions were really strong I would tell myself, " come on you can do this, you are doing this!" The only thing that I did not like is they kept having to monitor the baby so I would have to get up out of the water. They told me it was because of his prematurity but it was still annoying since it requited me to stand up out of the water. Other then that I loved birthing in the water.

After that 2 hours it was about 12:30 my midwife suggested that I get out of the tub so she could check me. She noticed that my temp had gone way up and that the babies heart rate had increased greatly too. She said, "if we do not do something to get your temp down doctors are going to want to intervene because this could mean the baby has an infection!" She told me it was just likely that I was in the tub with the hot water but that she wanted me to take some tylenol to see if we could get my temp and the babies heart rate to come down. I was kind of delirious at this point and I knew I did not want the doctors to come in and say that they wanted to do a c-section when I felt like I was so close. When Pam checked me she said I was only 6 cm dilated. WHAT?? Really? I could have sworn I was more then that. Shari told me sometimes when they check you your cervix closes a little since their is something foreign up there and that she knew I was more then 6 cm! I still was disappointed and here is when I said the magic words, "I don't think I can do this anymore!" Contractions were at there strongest and I believe I lost focus a little. I was yelling, "I need help, please help me, I am not sure I can do this for 4 more centimeters!" After she checked me she said, lets break the bag of water that is in front of the baby and see if it gets things moving along. By this time my temp and babies heart rate was looking better so this was good. Funny how they had to break my water during labor when it technically broke 5 weeks prior. I most likely just had a small leak because I remember every time I contracted fluid would come out. When she broke my water I only felt a little trickle so I know most of my fluid was gone.

After that bag of water was ruptured I kept shouting, "I have to poop!" She said this was great and to get on the bed in a squatting position. I did just that. Everyone was encouraging me saying, "you doing so good, you are almost there, he is coming really soon!" These words made me feel better. 5 minuets later I was 10 cm dilated! Wahoo, I made it! 2 minuets later I felt the "burning ring of fire" and he was crowning. All I remember hearing is, "there is his head!" My midwife then told me to give one big push and one minuet later he was born!

Christian and I were so overcome with emotion and even my doula and midwife were emotional. All I could say is, "he is here, healthy and perfect!!" Christian told me, "you did it babe and you did it well!" My midwife told me I was a rock star and my doula said it was an amazing experience. It really was a magical moment for both Christian and I. I honestly felt closer and connected to Christian like I have never felt before. It's like he was doing the labor right along with me and that he felt everything I felt. There is nothing like holding your newborn and looking into your spouse eyes and knowing that you created this perfect human being! It was very spiritual and tender as we just sat and looked at our little miracle boy. That's all we could say, "he was really a complete miracle!" When I first held him I felt complete. Gazing at me with his big  bright eyes, as I touched his soft skin, I couldn’t put him down. He was absolutely gorgeous! After all we been through our SONshine was finally here! We were one proud Mom and Dad for sure!

I really did it, it was all me with no drugs! I should say "we" did it and now I know the meaning of what labor really means. I could not of done it with out my team of support, my midwife, husband and especially my doula. I have decided this is why they call it labor because it is hard hard work. I can say this because I have had 2 other births done completely different with many interventions. It is not even comparable to my last to births. At 2-3cm dilated on pit I did not feel those strong of contractions until I was in transition with going all natural. That's how big a difference it was. Honestly by the time you want the drugs or anything to help you its too late and your baby is almost here. If I can do it anyone can:) I knew that if I had to have the pit and get induced I would have gotten the epidural for sure. The congractions are just too strong and you don't get breaks to re focus or relax. If I ever have to have pit again (which I hope I never do) I will most likley always get the drugs. Your body was not meant to do it that way that is for sure! Now I know what they mean by doing natural labor by giving the power back to women. All of us are capable of doing this. I learned that his is what are bodies are meant to do. I felt powerful and invigorated! This was exactly how I pictured my labor going, fast and furious and it was amazing! I am not saying that epidurals, pit, or c-sections are bad because they are needed sometimes but I wish every women could experience the power and greatness that comes with giving birth naturally. The only thing I regret is no taking more pictures even when I threw that huge fit of not having the camera when we first were driving to the hospital...haha! Everything was just so busy that we really did not have time to pose for pictures if you know what I mean. Also natural labor is no glamor show so excuse the way I look in the photos.

My Doula, Shari and I

I did things really different then the norm after he was born. Usually they whisk them off to be weighed, measured, clamp their belly button, ect. About 10 minuets after he was born I delivered my placenta and kept it attached to him for the first 30 minuets. I held him skin to skin and nursed him right away. I also did not have him bathed for the first 2 days to keep the white cheesy stuff on him since its a protectant. They did not weigh and measure him for about an hour after. This is how I wanted it. I wanted to bond with my baby right when he was born and really all that stuff could wait. I also kept my placenta and had my doula encapsulate it into pills. When I did the research on it I found it very legit. I know some people think its weird and gross but I don't. A lot of vitamins are made the way they encapsulate the placenta especially the Chinese medicine way. It just like putting your hormones back into your body with extra nutrients and minerals your body needs. It can increase your milk, help with ppd, help you uterus shrink down, ect. I honestly saw no reason why not to do it. Many people put crap chemicals and food into their bodies and the placenta pills had nothing but good stuff in them so this is why I chose to do it. It would just be like taking another vitamin that my body needs after birth. Some people do it raw in a shake. I chose not to just because I didn't think I could bring myself to do it. My doula did talk me into one shake after birth. I told her as long as I did not see it made or taste it I would. I could only taste the berries in the shake and actually when she brought it to me I was so dang hungry that I forgot it was in their until later. I can honestly say that its awesome, I wish I would have done it with my other children. The benefits of it have been tenfold. I could not thank my Doula enough for doing it!     

So in a nutshell here are by natural birth stats
10:29pm: Admitted 4cm
12:25am: 5-6 cm--ruptured bag of water
12:40am: 7cm
12:46am: 10cm
12:48am: Crowning
12:49am: Birth

Really my birth from when I got to the hospital was about 3 hours total! I almost spent that much time pushing with my other two. I did not tear which was so nice and I figured this would be the case since he was almost 3 1/2 lbs smaller then Porter. My after birth cramps were the worse I have ever felt and my abs seriously hurt for 2 days. This was nothing compared to how I felt with my other boys. It was much better this time minus the after birth cramps. My healing seemed to go 10 times faster and I just felt better. My uterus shrunk down only after 6 days postpartum. It was amazing the difference. With the others the healing took forever and I was in a lot of pain, bled alot, ect. I was so happy that I was able to do a natural birth because with my case with pProm this is usually not what happens. I could not thank my Doula enough. I would say if you are shooting for a natural birth that you must have a doula. I could not have done it with out her. She made my birth plan pull through just the way I wanted it. Thank you Shari!

Today is Kreed actual due date and I can't believe he is already here. As I held him today I am reminded of Gods love and just how wonderful he really is. I wonder if I would still be sitting here pregnant if I had not have ruptured early? This little man already has a mind of his own that's for sure. He has already changed so much in the past 3 1/2 weeks. He is chunking right out and filling out his preemie clothes. I am so grateful the way things turned out with carrying him as long as I did and giving birth to him. I thank my father in Heaven every day for our miracle. It makes me feel bad that I ever cried when they told me he was a girl and I found out he was another boy. I would not trade him for anything, he is perfect. We love you Kreed. Happy "due date" birthday buddy!

Grandma Beth Visit + Easter

We had Grandma Beth here this past week which it was a treat to have her here. She helped us out so much with cleaning, organizing, ect. We enjoyed General Conference and Easter while she was here. The boys loved having her around and they sure kept her on her toes...LOL! She soaked up every minuet of her grand baby boys.

Easter is always a special time to really reflect on the Savior and his Resurrection. I unfortunately stayed at home since Kreed was still just brand new. The boys and Grandma Beth went to Church and the boys sure looked so handsome, don't they always? Christian was away at a Rugby tournament and would not return until that evening.

We attempted photos with Grandma but we always know how that goes with these boys posing for photos..LOL!

When they got home from Church we enjoyed a yummy ham dinner and an Easter egg hunt. Christian was home by then so he at least got to enjoy somewhat of Easter. The boys were sure excited to hunt for their eggs!

We just did a simple hunt in our backyard. Porter was not interested in hunting eggs anymore when he figured out there was candy in them..LOL! He would just go from egg to egg and take the candy out an eat it thus he did not collect many. Treyson on the other hand was super ecstatic about how many eggs he collected not so much that there was candy in them.

I spent most of the time taking care of Mr. Kreed and nursed him as I watched the boys hunt for their eggs.

I have learned that the more kids you have that you can't expect to much out of holidays especially when you have a newborn. The simpler the better and the kids seem to enjoy it more.

Of course we then let the boys dye some eggs which they made such a mess but it was fun. Treyson though it was some sort of a science project and was using one of the tools as a pretend magnifying glass...LOL! Porter just thought it was fun to keep dunking the eggs over and over and he ended up with very green hands by the end..LOL! Oh these boys, they make every holiday so memorable! 

The next day they got to decorate their dyed eggs. This was not as much fun as dying them but they still enjoyed it.

After they decorated them they wanted to give some to their "baby brother" so they came over and showed me what they had done while I was feeding him and said, " Kreed needs some eggs too!" They then took all of the eggs out and placed them by Kreed..LOL! It actually was really cute and I praised them for wanting to share their eggs with their brother. How sweet of them:)

We went to credit island park that night. It looked pretty with all the leaves coming back on the trees.  .

 We all piled in our rockstar roomy van to get there...love our van!





It was pretty chilly out but the boys did not seem to mind. Outside+Park= Total FUN for our boys. They literally have a smile on their face the whole time playing.

Grandma Beth had fun playing as did Jax. Christian went for a quick run while I mostly just looked after Kreed. YAY for park days!

I think the boys were getting all their energy out since they had been cooped up in the house so much with a new baby and all.They were just going crazy running and laughing. It was cute. 

We had to do the swings one last time with Daddy before they could go. Swings are their favorite!

Kreed sure stayed snuggled in his car seat the whole time and hardly made a sound!

The next morning we had to take Grandma Beth to the airport. The boys were sure not happy about the whole thing, they wanted to get on the airplane too..LOL! 

It was so great to have Grandma Beth visit to help us out and to celebrate Easter. She is such a wonderful women and the boys sure miss her. Thank you so much Mama Beth, we love you! Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter too:)

Happy Sunday!

Kreed {photo shoot & his name}

We did Kreed newborn photo shoot the day we left the hospital. We opted for this option since he was preterm to just get it out of the way. I wanted to get them when he was just brand new and not wait since he was already a week old. He was pretty cranky thorough the shoot and I had to feed him in the middle. This was only the other boys 2nd time meeting him so lets just say it was a bit crazy. I swear all photo shoots with boys are just nuts...haha! I did not have much time to get ready since running back and forth to feed and Christian had just come from Rugby practice. I thought they turned out pretty well considering. You could see all the markings on him from the iv, and patches which was not my ideal but then again it is what he went through so I guess it was OK. Of course he was all wide eyed so we really did not get any sleeping ones. I swear all my kids are awake during their newborn photo shoot which does not make it easy..haha! Needless to say we did get some good ones and it's the memories that count. When I look through these photos I am in just awe of our sweet little miracle.... so tiny and precious! I am sure not used to such a small baby or a baby with quite so little hair but he is a keeper nonetheless!

 

 

His Name..

Lots of people wonder why we chose the name we did...

Creed or Kreed means a statement of strong belief or a confession of true faith.

Cutler has several meanings... knife maker, athletic, and strong. 

We have always debated on the name Creed but I wanted to spell it with a "K" since my name starts with a that. We would go back and forth on the name and then one day I was just praying while in the hospital and it just came to me that this should be his name for sure. Not just because we like it but because of the meaning of the name. Everything we went through with our son required us to have a strong testimony and so therefore the name Kreed fit just perfect.

We knew if it was another boy and since it was my turn to do the middle family name that it would without question be Cutler to carry on that name in our own family. We like the way it sounded with Kreed...it just has a nice ring to it.  We also wanted to honor the Cutler family and essentially pass their name down to our posterity. When we found out what the name meant we were thrilled since they both fit together just perfect. Kreed was strong throughout his fight the last part of my pregnancy and the 1st week here on earth. We knew for sure we had chosen the right name for our son..

KREED CUTLER PRICE

Love you so much baby BOY!

Welcome Home Kreed!

This is no April Fools....We brought our sweet little Kreed home on Thursday!

His last feeding at the NICU, fast alseep on a full belly! 

Thursday was a busy getting him ready to go home. We had to do a car seat check where he has to take a nap in his car seat to make sure his heart rate stays good. He seemed to not mind his car seat and he passed. We also had to get ready for discharge by filling out a whole bunch of papers, getting his last dose of antibiotics, ect, ect. They told us that his progress was amazing and they were not worried about anything. We were so thrilled to have him come home!

When it was finally time to take him home he just looked so tiny in his car seat. We had to adjust it just right to have him be safe enough.

Kreed's older brothers were so excited to take him home finally. They had to "help" with everything we were doing with Kreed, it was really cute!

Since we have been home of course it's always crazy with a newborn...feeding, changing, holding, ect. Christian is sure soaking up the time with time with him since he barely got to see him through his hospital stay. 

We are pretty tired, especially me. Kreed has been pretty good so far but some nights have been long.  

Were not complaining though since we are just so happy to have him home.

The boys are adjusting well to him, they love giving him kisses. Its so sweet. 

Treyson especially is a good protective big brother. He tells me when Kreed is crying, sit by me when I feed him, always ask to hold him, and even helps with diaper changes. This is such a change from when I brought Porter home. He is older and I think he understand more on what being a big brother means. 

Grandma Beth (Christians Mom) came the day after we brought him home. It has been nice to have her here to help out with our boys. She sure loves her grand baby boys!

Kreed is such a little charmer. Most of the time he is covered in breast milk..LOL! He loves to eat! I love it when he is wide eyed and looks around, hes got his Daddy's eyes for sure!  

It does not take him long to fall asleep. He sleeps a lot. Sleep is just as important as eating with a pre term baby and he is sure good at it.

We are so blessed to have this little man cub in our home. All the long nights in the NICU,  repeated drives, feedings, bedrest, ect, ect. It was all worth it! Christian and I just looked at each other the other day and said, "Can you believe we are parents to 3 little boys?" We are and it feels so right. Every time I look at Kreed I am reminded of how much my Father in Heaven loves us. How blessed I was to carry him as long as I did and just to have him here and healthy. He is truthfully our MIRACLE SON!

Welcome home baby Kreed!!!!

We love you more then we can express:)