Heavy Heart.
I could probably write a novel on both of these people in our lives that have passed away recently, but I am emotional and physically (I taught 2 Zumba classes yesterday and had a later night with my littles) drained. I also need some time to collect my thoughts and feelings.
3 days ago Christian close cousin Cody passed away. We were heartbroken to find out this news. We don't really know the details, but he went in his sleep. He was very special to our family, actually the whole Price family just adored him. Our hearts are hurting for sure, especially Christians. He was only 26 and one of Christian's heroes! The funniest kid you would ever meet he was. Just the thought of him puts a smile on our face. He was so very special and no one could forget his out of this world dance moves! An angel on earth returned to Heaven to meet his brother Kade. You see, not to long ago Cody lost his brother in an accident, so this family has endured so much loss.
This pic was taken at our Price family reunion back in 2006.
We are going to miss him so much, but we smile thinking of him as a missionary with his brother Kade singing in the choir in Heaven. This dear cousin of ours touched our life in more ways than words can describe. I will write more later on one of the greatest spiritual experience we had with Cody. This is something we have never forgotten and changed our perspective forever. Just know he was such a significant spirit, and his love for life would make you just want to be better and more loving person. We love you Cody and Rosemann Family!
Read Cody Steven Roseman Obituary,
here.
Next, yesterday I got word that my Father past away early that morning. He was in his early 60's, still young. He had been on life support for a week. I don't know all the gritty details yet, but I know he was not doing well for a while. I was being updated all week by my brother Kody who lives in Florida. My sister Shannon (we have the same father but different Moms) was the closest to our Father. I wish I could be there to support and comfort her, because I know it has been so hard to go through this. I want to be there for her but our distance makes it hard. She is one of the strongest women that I know. She has endured a lot lately with her grandpa just passing not to long ago. I have not been able to get her off my mind, and I constantly pray for her. I have not been able to reach her yet, but I also want to let her grieve. I just hope she knows how much I love her.
This means both of my biological parents are gone now. It's kind of crazy and makes me sad thinking about it actually. Both my Mother and Father and I am only 28 years old. I honestly have mixed feelings on the death of my Father, which I will dive into at a later time. My day was really busy so I just recently had the time to reflect and reminisce. Lots of emotions - Sad, angry, hurt, lonely sympathetic, guilt, ect. Yes, I was raised by my grandparents, but my Father was apart of my life for awhile. I want to celebrate his life and remember the good, not the bad. My Fathers obituary is not up yet. I am about to go through pictures to see what I have of him. I knew I had some at my ring ceremony we did in Florida when I got married, so I'll share that one with you. Love you!
My grandparents are getting up in their age. I seriously dread the day when it is their time. I am grateful I will always have the Cutler family. They will be all I have after everyone goes. How blessed I am to have them.
That is all I have for today. Thanks for all your sweet comments, text, messages, thoughts, prayers and love.
I'll leave you with this quote:
“You don't want to get over it. Don't act surprised. As awful a burden as grief is, you know intuitively that it matters, that it is profoundly important to be grieving. Your grief plays a crucial part in staying connected to your loved ones life. To give up your grief would mean losing that person yet again. If I had the power to take your grief away, you'd fight me to keep it. Your grief is awful, but it is also holy. And somewhere inside you, you know that.”
-Unknown
This hit close to home today as I thought about how more will be added to the list of all the people that are in Heaven that we love and miss so very much. This brings great comfort to know that it's almost a "good grief" and that it's something sacred that only you and Lord could only comprehend and understand. We are thankful for our knowledge of the Gospel when it comes to hard times like these. Comfort in the hour of death can be hard to find, but the Gospel help me keep the great eternal perspective.
